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November 20 May God bless me get through the test.... Finally my practical training is finish~!!!I was so happy finally the 6months had passed and it is also passed very fast.. Now I need to make the heart preparation to go back school study for 1year...Hope that I can get use to the environment very fast and smooth... Being together with you so many months, suddenly need to get use that we need to communicate only by phone... I know that you will go oversea study and that will be need years to wait...I willing to wait and I know this is a very big challenge to me.. What I want now is just time to make me get use to the environment that I must get use...Hope that dear won't be disappointed on my reaction every time I cannot find you... I won't control you and I just want you to know that I really love you dear...We had made a whole life promise and I am not going to forget it..I am going to obey it and I will wait for you until you say its the time... Just give me sometime to get use on what we practice now and hope that dear just need to give more patient on me and also my action... I hope that you also will like the same won't give up so easily and willing to wait for each other just like me.... I will pray to God hope that both of us can get through this big test and can be together always k... Love you dear always and forever..... November 04 Wao~~ The time passed so fast!!Now my training is going to end soon~~Just left two more weeks to go... In these half year I went to Recreation Dept,Front Office Dept and also Housekeeping Dept for the training... Of course all the dept I go I like it..They all are very friendly and also willing to help and teach us...I was very happy to have my training at Shangri-La Tanjung Aru Resort & Spa... Although when I start my training I had lost my friend, but I didn't regret losing them because I know that I didn't lose anything...It is them to make everything complicated and they are not open minded... It is not my fault and Michelle open my mind said that not to worry them anymore..Now,if you want me to care them and out with them again,I just can say,SORRY...Hahaha... I am very happy with all my friends now...I realize that not all friends I can together with.Sometimes some of them if mind not same, we are hard to communicate.Since at the starting we have d problem,must solve it ASAP. Why wanna say about them??I also forget them le..Haha Oh ya..Sure I will miss this hotel once I finish my training..Within this half year I had met a lot of different case and also different guests...Consider as got a little a little bit of experience but I know it is not enough..I will try to study hard more and get degree!! Hope that I didn't choose the wrong career...Hehee....Hope that once I choose this career both family and career I can care them very good... May 10 Yeah ~~^^ Finally the day that I keep waiting is coming.... On the 18th of May...I will start my hotel management practical training at STAR Hotel... I will having my training at there for nearly 6months.... This for sure will b my good experience and also wil get a lot a lot of knowledge that I dunno~~ Hope in the hotel I can get good experience and also knw how to do n job.... Besides oso hope wil knw d procedure of hotel how they works.... The 3 departments that I had chosen is Housekeeping Dept, Front Office Dept and also Recreation Dept.... Although in this training I wil felt tired for my stamina, but for sure I knw tht I wil b veli happy.... Besides I can also think that I am going to have my exercise everyday..... Actually now I juz scare of my FO Dept...Cz my Eng veli lousy I scare if I communicate with the customer I talk like they dunno wad I am talking bout...LOL....Besides if at FO a...My make up skills muz improve a lot a lot....Lao Po Men~~~Muz teach me a~~~!!!Help me improve my make up skills~~!!Tq...Muakzzz... Hope God will always b with me and everything will b smooth enuf....^^ Now juz left 1 week for me to relax....Aiks....Within this week muz play til happy happy....After start work I think I hard to out wid my frens d lo...Cz work whole day sure tired...Nite time cant out til late late le....Cz no energy...hehe... But guys dun worry la...For sure I will still call u guys out d...Juz wait my call la~~haha~~... February 01 Happy Chinese New Year!! Finally I juz bac go back from China after 1 week traveling.... Although this time I go China the place all are not in d town...But I seen a lot of scenery place that I cant see it at anywhere... All the mountain the river the lack I cant c it anywher...It is so beautiful!! But all d place I go cant buy anything good or souvenir for me friends...This is d thing I most regret!! Sorry!!Cz at that place hard to buy things...Nth to buy oso... Not so many things are nice n quite suitable...haiz... Even me oso didnt buy much things....T_T This trip make me sense a lot of things oso...keke... N oso make some new frens....Haha.... While some old fren oso become more more fren....Blerk... CNY is over...Now gonna start work oridi....All d assignment...test....exam....R coming n find me!! I cant play anymore n need to start hardworking lo!! Onli this month need to hardworking...So pls help me pray hope that this month will pass faster...LOL... After finish exam~~Then is time to play again....Hope that I can successfully plan a trip n all of us go enjoy! Haha... January 14 Friendship~~ For me, nothing is important than friendship... In my mind and life, I always put my frens as the 1st....Yet I didnt hav couple..Lol~~ Mayb oso is cz of I lack of safeness...This make me feel that fren is more important than anything.... Yet I so scare to make frens angry or sad or anything... Cz in my mind, need to build up a frenship is hard n oso need long period of time...But if wanna to spoil it juz can use few seconds!! Juz now happen something make me thought that I wil lose my fren~~I was very worry n scare cz gonna lost this fren~~ I had make a big mistake...That almost no 1 will make d mistake...Didnt discuss with her then I direct make d decision....Cz I thought she had oridi make d decision...Yet actually I mis-understanding with her meaning... Its all bout d assignment....Haiz....Those small problem make me almost lost my best fren~~! But luckily juz now both of us oridi talked clearly n knw the prob at wher n oso all d prob that v having... Lucikly now all d prob had solved n both of us stil like normal again... I knw this time is my fault...I had make d stupid mistake...D most stupid thing that I had ever made in my life~!! I promise to you~~I wont make u sad n angry again~Everything I will discuss with you~~I rili appreciate this relationship...Sorry again...I rili rili rili feel apologize~!! I promise you I wont betray u k~~?Cz i knw that u oso juz like me~~Very k bout fren~~... December 20 OMG!! Finally I gt a new hp!!Thanks dad n mom!!Love you guys so so muchy!!Muakz~~ I gt d hp is I like d hp...At first I thought mom was just lying when she said that if I get top in the class then I can buy a new hp~~Who knw she didnt lied yet she gave me d cash to but d hp I wan!!Muakzz~~So happy wid d new hp~~ Love it so muchy~ U knw suddenly this few days I keep thinking bout d two ppl that I wont meet and didnt contact wid them long long time ago.... Both of them busy with their own stuff n sure forget bout me already....Yet I stil at the corner there thinking bout them...haiz...How stupid am I~~!! I dunno how should I do next step....I cant forget them...I cant give up~Yet I said I hate them...But I stil lied to myself... I cant meet them...Once I meet them,I wil become blur blur and confuse wid my own feeling... Can some1 tel me wad should I do??Can some1 tel me wad decision should I make? I rili rili miss them so much~~..... December 15 BBQ night!! Finally school exam juz finished!! Thank God....At least all the exam paper I had tried my best.... I juz hope that all the sub will pass n I can cont next year...Lol... Last Sat our DHTM Sem 2 students juz organized the BBQ... That day will be a memorable day for me... Most of us had enjoyed very much and also very happy.... Actually the most enjoyable n memorable part is when all of us all d sparkling juice..lolx.. All ppl like oridi gt insane n crazy keep pouring each other... After d juice finish v used d bottle n filled water then played played played again... All of us gt wet n very fun...V also almost play many rounds.... Although that night v didnt played until late midnight, but i stil veli fun and cant forget bout that night.... Actually I poured the most ppl is Nic I think...Then Melvin then Erick and Alex...Kaka... Hope that next time will gt the chance to sot n play with them again....Hehe... October 18 Hope the problem got solved a little bit lu~After the incident happen last Tues, I cant blif that I already didnt talk to my dad for almost 4 days...! I even greet him oso didnt greet him~! When Thurs gt class at 1st I oso cant control my emotion cz keep thinking bout my problem~ But luckily gt many frens support me...Then start from that day i juz feel better.... Thx to all my frens~~! Thurs n Fri when I at home I dun even say a word~Then my face juz like no mood no mood dun happy like that... But when in skol I stil ok la...Can smile can talk...Lolx... If today mom didnt ask me out I think d prob stil cant solve geh~So this time oso need to thx my mom.... Juz now afternoon I early bac hum,then my mom called asked me to take her out go downtown buy something... When I acc her go buy things,then she told me about that my dad gt told her that I didnt talked to him this few days...Even morning or night got greet him oso didnt even greet....If gt saw him oso dun wanna talk to him.... When I heard that suddenly I felt that actually my dad veli care bout those small stuff.... Juz now after I bought something,my mom told me that dun keep angry wid dad again...Cz all this stuff that U bought actually d $$ is from dad.... After I get bac hum I juz start to greet my dad lo~Who knw juz now when all of us having dinner outside, his mood good til duno how to desribe..Keep laughing n smiling n also talked about those jokes...Mayb this means that d problem gt solved a little bit gua~ My mom oso gt told me that actually they juz worried about me when I at outside wid frens...Cz d safety not so good here..veli dangerous.. Hehe...Now juz hope that everything will be solved n wont b a problem to me again lo~~ Hope I can be more happy...Thx God for blessing all d way~~ October 15 Meaningless~~Today whole day didnt even go out anywher and find anyone... Juz whole day stay at home doin nothing....Even eat oso didnt hav any mood... Facing with parents or even family I oso cant even control my emotion... I rili dunno wad should I do...I dunno wad should I told them.... Today I dun even smile...Laugh oso..Cz I didnt hav such mood to smile and also laugh... In the future this few days I dunno wad should I do...I dunno wad kind of mood I should face with my family... When I meet them my tears cant stop falling down...I cant control it.... I rili dunno why they wanna do this to me.... I oridi 18 years old...I oso knw how to think carefully...Sure I will also know how to protect myself, isn't it? Y stil wanna treat me like a kid?? Izzit cant blif my any decision?? Izzit cz I like the things like kids then that means I am not mature anymore and also my brain still like a kid??Still thinking like a kid?? U guys oso dun wanna blif me then why I wan to explain to u guys so much?? Explain so much oso juz will occur quarrel.. Better juz keep quiet and dun wanna do anything... Seems u guys dun wan I have a night life... U guys juz take my freedom away and also my hapiness... Then my life oso will be juz meaningless.... Feel wanna DYING...Onli 1 night I doin something wrong... Now I have to sacrifice my night life....No more night life anymore....I oso can say as NO LIFE ANYMORE! Seems u wanna take back my life....Seems u wanna me to be like that... Then i juz can say u make the decision like this, u will lose a happy fren...u will lose a happy sister....Definitely u will oso lose a happy daughter!! Ppl gt night life izzit a problem?? Ppl owez go hum late izzit means the ppl doesn't have discipline?? For my opinion, the most important thing is the ppl who has d night life...Muz knw how to protext themselves... No matter how late u go hum, dun make other ppl worry... I knw this time is my fault...But seems u guys all dun wanna tolerate with me this gurl...Then i cant say anymore... I juz can say i hard to be happy now! This is no longer I wan d life!! Nobody can help me fix this prob...U oridi do this to me....I feel hopeless...I feel helpless..I knw u r trying to help me... But this is not I wan u knw?? Many ppl said my life is not colourful....Even sometimes I oso will think like that... Do u knw y i wil think like that??Because this is not the actual life I wan!! Saying those thing oso useless anymore....I oridi feel tired of quarreling....I oridi feel tired of trying to take back my life...My freedom...Anything... I dunno I still need to wait how long to get my actual life that I wan.... I juz feel veli veli unhappy and feel helpless... I think that now I rili rili veli hard to laugh out loud... Even saying something funny I oso think I didnt hav the mood to say bout it... I lazy to do anything...I lazy to think oso! Even night oso cant go out....Like this onli juz make me wanna die u knw~?! Hope some1 can c d changes...Hope some1 wil realize bout it.... October 07 Sorry~~ Long time didnt write blog jor.... Happen too much things til i dunno wher should i start to write.... Gt something that sure i wont forget.... Sorry that giving u such answer....But i juz can giv u such answer... I cant lie to u...i cant lie to myself too.... This juz will make u n me suffer.... If like that will suffer....So y dun v juz end it like that?? Y dun v juz forget bout it?? Think that nothing happen b4?? I hope i can do like that~~ Time can help us...Izzit? Hmm.... July 29 Thx all everything~~Aiks.... So fast oridi 18years old ler...Haha.... But this year's plan is juz do nothing... Just now Go having lunch with Inti fren...Evon,Michelle,Lynetha,Erick,Justin,Chong n Nic...Lolx... V juz having a simple lunch at Warisan lo....Haha... But when they drink d big glass of milk tea a,rili funny o~~wakaka...Blerk~~ Then v all go take d sticker pic together...Aiks so fun ler... I oso nv try like that b4~~ If gt chance a next time sure need to play n try again~~Lolx.. All d present i gt today i rili like it veli much~~ I rili appreciate it~~Thx!! Today rili happy...Haha.... Oso hope that everyday wil be veli happy juz like today~~ Muakzzz.... June 24 Tired liao....Haiz...A lot of assignment need to do....!!! Scare cant pass it up exact d time....Scare cant handle it....Scare cant pass all the subject..!! How should i do??Every night i slep late...Cz owez worry bout those assignment...Progress test....Quiz....Exam....Plus plus those small small thing...Haiz.... I rili scare i cant handle it..I scare i cant pass it....Haiz.... Rili stress....Tired....Scare....Hmmmm...... Juz hope that everything wil juz b good la.... Juz hope that everything wil juz let it b like tat la...Aiks...Sometimes i oso lazy to think liao..... Hope that d time fast fast go...Hope that all those thing make me fan d all dissapear... I juz wanna b happy....I juz wanna relax.... Haiz....I dun wan to be like too stress oso...Aiks.... Any1 who is Christian if can...can u plz pray for me??? Thx.... June 07 Wad..??RUDE oo...Trip go to KL quite tired...But fun la...Cz can make many new frens...wakaka.... Haiz...But tis trip go to KL make me so HATE AIR ASIA liao... How can their service can such poor??can such sucks?!(sorry to say rude word cz too angry liao) When i bak to KK,u knw...I MISS D FLIGHT LA.... Actually mayb i oso gt some wrong la cz too blur liao...But i stil think this is AIR ASIA d fault...!! How can d boarding board wid d boarding pass d time not same at all??!! If i am those ppl who wont c boarding pass d...then i how??!Owez miss flight la... Then owez miss flight,then i owez buy new ticket la?!!ADA SALAH KAH TIDAK O?!! So many prob in AIR ASIA... 1. boarding board n d boarding pass d time nt same at all la...1 is 1900..1 is 1940!!Haiz... 2. Y i cant hear any ppl find us if they knw v didnt get in d plane bt v oridi check in liao?? 3. Wah...Miss liao then buy a new ticket...how much??RM550 la..!!I go n bak oso juz RM404 lo....Wad d....Haiz....Go bak more more more exp then go n bak 1 time...Aiks..... I oso dunno how to say liao...If next time got chance a,i prefer sit MAS i oso dun wan AIR ASIA..!! Haiz...I oso heard that AIR ASIA wanna bankrupt liao...Haha.... Dunno la...I knw I didnt regret I went KL...I juz regret y i choose AIR ASIA.... Wakaka..... Sorry ya to say so rude bout AIR ASIA...cz i too too too angry liao....Angry til rili wanna boom d terminal that night....rili...!! Hope tat i wil hav d chance go again la...I like KL...Wakaka May 21 Think carefully.... After start my college life n study those new n fresh thing...Actually it is quite fun oso... Can learn many new things are good!Some1 can be knowledgeable...Haha...Lolx... But my opinion is...Try to think positively when you having difficulties... This is important.... Everyone must be "le guan"....Think optimistic...!Just like me...! Haiz....Just get shock actually yesterday cz happen so serious thing.... Now stil gt a little bit scare scare n feel fear when i passed that freaky place.... But i sure believe that GOD will bless me always n help me always rite?? God loves every1 in this world....So thats y yesterday I'm stil save n can playing computer...Wakaka..... May 06 Haiz....Haiz...
My college life juz started 2 days....
Mayb onli me wil think like tat i oso dunno..Haha....
But i didnt feel excited,happy,fun anymore....y?
N wad i feel?I feel scare...stressful....N oso no confident anymore...
Hope that after sometimes mayb i can handle this...
Hope that some1 can giv me strength...Power...N oso confident....
Thx!
May GOD bless me ....Lolx April 25 Hope tat it is right....Think liao d whole night...
Finally i awake.....Finally i knw wad i wan....
Hope that i do d last decision is d right decision....
Hope that i wont regret...So do you....
I juz realize tat actually this is not d time....
The time haven arrive yet...Still at d wrong time now...
Sorry....I knw tat b4 wad i do it to you,sure hurt you....
But wad i tel u,is all true....
Dun try to think that i lie u...Wad i told u is true....Rili....
I knw in d future sure got another gurl more suitable u than me....
I knw in d future sure got another gurl more love u than i love u,more care u than juz like i care u....
N more like u juz like i like u....
April 17 Finally....Finally i succes....!
Finally i giv up...!
Great...!Yeah.....
Now i juz fell like nothing can control me...
So when talk bout those thing again i feel hopeless...Feeless...
This is great rite?? April 13 So sad....Bad mood....This 2 days happen so many things...But u oso didnt at my side..... U didnt find me....I am going to giv up liao.... Ask u to giv me sometime...Y u wanna keep rushing mE?? Oridi told u liao i haven prepare to start a relationship n i oso didnt hav d mood to say those thing now.... If u rili likes me then y dun u wait for me?? I knw i can feel that u care bout me... U knw u from KK oso can drive alone to Kingfisher juz cz of wanna meet me... I veli touch that time u knw...U oso follow behind my car cz juz wanna send me bak home.... I feel pleased n touch....Thank you...! Then cz of i wan u to giv me time then u said u dun wan care bout me liao.... U wan me how to do??? Cz of u ...U make me like this.... Before i oridi hopeless in love....Is u giv me hope again.....Now cz u say those word....Make me feel so HOPELESS.... I dun wan to say those thing liao....Rili.... |
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